i seem to have become more emotional in my old age. 
ever since mikey was born, i can’t get through a worship session at church without getting all choked up. something about being in the Lord’s house with all these people around me earnestly singing praise to God with arms uplifted gets to me every time.
the other day i totally teared up as i whisper-sang along to scc’s ‘fingerprints of God’ as i held mikey close.
this love i have for my boy in all its forms: tender, affectionate, overwhelming, raw and protective, boundless. this has somehow allowed me to experience God’s love on a whole new level. it has grown from being mostly head knowledge to heart knowledge. it’s such a joyful knowledge knowing that God loves each of His children the same way parents love their children. only it’s better because His love is perfect, unconditional, and never fails. i find great comfort in the fact that not only does God love me, but He loves mikey soooo much better than i ever could. now i just need to convey that fact to mikey. every day.
this is what has made worship music come alive for me. i can’t quite explain it, but there it is.
oh and by the way, mikey’s first tooth has FINALLY come in!!! it’s so cute to see it pop up all of a sudden, but am i crazy to feel a little bit sad that his gummy grins are being replaced by toothy smiles?
5 Comments
mrsstellalee
i totally know what you mean michelle. and no you aren’t crazy to be a bit sad about that tooth…everytime megan reaches a new milestone it’s bittersweet for me too. there is a huge part of me that wants her to stay my little baby forever! usually first time moms are so anxious to see the next milestone, but not so much for me. i just want to really fully enjoy each stage she is in and not wish for the next one to come quickly…i think you are the same too. 🙂
greantea71
siiiigh. stop making me want to be a mother! i have to finish school, ya know.
nahyoojin
AWWWWWWWWW!!!
ChristineSong
Well put michelle.
mrssjlee
all i can say is that a baby changes everything!!! for the better of course!